What I like to imagine is that there is a very thick plate of plexiglas between me & the world. Better yet, a one-way mirror. I can hear & see everything but no one can hear or see me. Actually this is all too metaphorical & requires far too much imaginational hardware. So I think of myself as a ghost—a far more realistic & supportable notion inasmuch as I feel as if I were born half dead already—& remain only half-alive. In spite of myself, I can be seen sometimes, albeit hazily—and I can still move & knock stuff over. I can even be heard though I try not to make that mistake too often as it is almost always to my regret. As it is, I'm only perceptible by very sensitive people & fortunately there aren't too many of those around.