Stopping beside the coffee-maker with a cup of coffee in her
hand, still not talking, not even to herself, but thinking thinking thinking. Of
what? Of things to say, of course! Listen, Let me tell you something, Look—all her
imaginary conversations start with these phrases or some variation of, and
nothing follows, the intake of breath as if something will, but then, nothing.
What is there to say that hasn’t already been said, re-said, clarified,
re-clarifed, corrected, amended, misunderstood, and in retrospect regretted, the genesis of
some inextricably complicated and never to be reversed taking-umbrage-at, at best, forgotten, one can only hope? She
reserves her eloquence for a sigh. Her apologies for wrong numbers. Those poor
lost souls who think they know who they are calling but who’ve gotten her
instead. Hello? Hello? Is this...who is this? Sorry. Wrong number. They never, not once that she can ever recall, hang on long enough to say goodbye.
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