=William T. Vollmann=

There are times when you know that something is not right anymore or that something is over, but with that knowledge comes a sick premonition of what it will mean to you, as if you suddenly realized that the ground was dissolving under you, and under that was darkness and dirt and crawling bugs, and you want the comfort of solid ground back so much that you will keep to the thing that is not right, willing it to be right for another day's journey, a few thousand more steps, because you want to not think about the dark hole waiting for you, and if you can delay the collapse of the ground you will certainly do it.