come morning
just enough snow to see
the black footsteps
of all those who walked 
through my sleep

how it, too,
can be a phoenix--
the dusty sparrow
whom the sunlight touches
just right

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Jeanette Winterson, from "Sexing the Cherry"

"On more than one occasion I have been ready to abandon my whole life for love. To alter everything that makes sense to me and to move into a different world where the only known will be the beloved. Such a sacrifice must be the result of love...or is it that the life itself was already worn out? I had finished with that life, perhaps, and could not admit it, being stubborn or afraid, or perhaps did not know it, habit being a great binder.

I think it is often so that those most in need of change choose to fall in love and then throw up their hands and blame it all on fate. But it is not fate, at least, not if fate is something outside of us; it is a choice made in secret after nights of longing."

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=Will Barnet, American painter, dies November 13=

--consequently
my recent drawings 
have been incorporating
his themes & images.

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=now reading...=

=Jack Gilbert, poet, dies November 11th=

=strolling through the park=

=thoughts to think about...=

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Baruch Spinoza...

"I confess that the theory which subjects all things to the will of an indifferent God and makes them dependent on his pleasure is far nearer the truth than that which states that God acts in all things for the furthering of good."

=some notable quotes from "Bento's Sketchbook" by John Berger

"Drawing is correcting."

"To be desired is perhaps the closest anybody can reach in this life to feeling immortal."

"One protests (by building a barricade, taking up arms, going on a hunger strike, linking arms, shouting, writing) in order to save the present moment, whatever the future holds. To protest is to refuse being reduced to a zero and to an enforced silence. Therefore, at the very moment a protest is made, if it is made, there is a small victory. The moment, although passing like every moment, acquires a certain indeligblity. It passes, yet it has been printed out. A protest is not principally a sacrifice  made for some alternative, more just future; it is an inconsequential redemption of the present."

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Lately, as a sketchbook, I've been using an omnibus collection of four Anne Tyler novels I bought used for a penny (plus $3.99 shipping and handling, alas) on Amazon. I draw on the pages after I've read them. Since I'm carrying the book around all the time it's convenient and economical to draw in it, too. I like the texture and complexity the typeface adds to the drawings. The first two novels in the collection--"Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant" and "Morgan's Passing"--are terrific, by the way. 

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Krishnamurti says...

"You may know the superficial layers of your mind, but to know the unconscious motives, drives, fears, the hidden residue of tradition, of racial inheritance -to be aware of all that and to give it close attention is very hard work; it demands a great deal of energy. Most of us are unwilling to give close attention to these things; we have not the patience to go into ourselves step by step, inch by inch, so that we begin to know all the subtleties, the intricate movements of the mind. But it is only the mind which has understood itself in its totality and is therefore incapable of self-deception, it is only such a mind that can free itself of its past and go beyond its own movements within the field of time. This is not very difficult, but it requires a great deal of hard work."

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Krishnamurti says...

"When the mind is burdened with a conclusion, a formulation, there is the cessation of inquiry. And it is essential to inquire, not merely as it is being done by certain specialists in the scientific or psychological field, but to inquire into oneself and to know the totality of one's being, the operation of one's own mind at the conscious and also at the unconscious level in all the activities of one's daily existence: how one functions, what one's responses are when one goes to the office, rides in the bus, when one talks with one's children, with one's wife or husband, and so on. Unless the mind is aware of the totality of itself,not as it should be, but as it actually is -unless it is aware of its conclusions, its assumptions, its ideals, its conformity, there is no possibility of the coming into being of this new, creative impulse of reality."

meanwhile...

--adventures in Cape May, NJ

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Krishnamurti Says...

"There is a learning which begins with self-knowledge, a learning which comes with awareness of your everyday activities: what you do, what you think, what your relationship with another is, how your mind responds to every incident and challenge of your daily life. If you are not aware of your response to every challenge in life, there is no self-knowledge. You can know yourself as you are only in relation to something, in relation to people, to ideas, and to things. If you assume anything about yourself, if you postulate that you are the Atman, or the higher self, for example, and start from that, which is obviously a form of conclusion, your mind is incapable of learning."

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meanwhile...

top l to r: The New York City Comic Con...(crowded!) Two-card Tarot reading: The Hermit and The Page of Cups (a good time to heed intuition). Unlikely pair: British novelist and philosopher Iris Murdoch adored French surrealist author Raymond Queneau! Who'd a thunk it?! Cocaine king Pablo Escobar had a statue of a hula-skirt-wearing hippo on the extensive grounds surrounding his mansion (among other oddities). Talk about surreal! Dinner at Yoshi Sushi, Brooklyn, NYC...